I know it'll never go away. I know my dreams will never come back. Sure things have improved with my life, but everyday i cry. I really want this life to be over now. I cant imagine living 50/60 more years with this void in me. With my luck, i'll live to be 90 like everyone else in my family. I don't want to live that long and everyday of it having this void in me. I really wish i could be Simmone again, but that person i was died. I can never be that Simmone again. I don't even feel like...

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Wow.

So i went by the new place today to view it, and boy was i PLEASED. Man, pleased ain't the word for it.

Wow. The walls were freshly painted, new carpeting and it's sound proofed. I now have a dishwasher, garbage disposal, and they even redid the weather stripping.

It's just so beautiful and picturing my brand new furniture in it is just mind blowing.

The walls are so white that they almost glow.

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There are many more to come after this one.

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Awe man. I am on to bigger and better things. Lol. I am soooo tickled pink.

I have picked out a couple items for my place. I am getting a couple of Michael Jackson stand up posters and they are life size.

I am going to make my own Michael Jackson shower curtains and clocks, thanks to some inspiration from another person.

I just have so many plans.

Already have i purchased my furniture. All rooms are furnished. My bills are...

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[Alvin Darling & Celebration]
Hallelujah,
Thank you

All Night (All night)
I wouldn't give up

All Night (All night)
I wouldn't let go

All Night (All night)
I just held on

[Chorus]
I called on the Lord (I called on the Lord) all nightlong and I wouldn't let go
Until he blessed my soul. I'm witness
That he came through

I called on the Lord (I called on the Lord) all...

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